idk y i feel the need to say this, but i suppose it's b/c im developing a complex as mom would say. (dont tell michaela she's big even tho she's proud of it, she'll develop a complex). so i am defending myself to a comment that deborah made a couple of days ago-a couple days late i suppose. it is in reference to me dropping spanish. "big surprise" deb says. well guess what, i might have been a somewhat lazy student last year/my whole life but last year it was cuz i was getting over dad and realizing that the parents handed to me were shit. as far as highschool was concerned, i have issues with not being smart in every subject. but now i am done feeling sorry for myself, and have become quite studious. last week i was literally in the library every nite but friday sat and sun with a FEVER i might add. and i was there for at least four hours each nite. but i am dropping spanish b/c it is like calculus 3, and about 15 other people who are majoring in spanish have also dropped the course cuz it is so hard. maybe i will take it next year (not offered in spring) with a different teacher, but it is a week away from midterm and i have failed every test. i was going to take a midsemester class but none fit in with my schedule, and none go towards anything i need either. i still am considering taking a photo class at 8 at nite tho cuz i think it would be interesting. so in summary, deborah and other people who dont feel good about themselves and thus look down on me: i am quite studious and please never make me question my work again. it will give me a complex. also, i only have 6 more classes to take for my english major so maybe i'll just drop my minor take 6 classes next semester and graduate this year. how do u like that idea?

yeah ur right i;ll never do that. cuz if nothing else, i should take a few more journalism classes and get certified to teach that as well. and there's probably some other classes that i dont know i have to take. otherwise it makes no sense how i am ahead of everybody who's in this major.