where r we going?

this weekend was probably the best since i've been down here this year. it started on thur when i said i wouldn't go out, but did, and ended at about 7 this morning when i took a cab home from ashley's. a band happened to play every nite, so we got to dance. my dog came down for the weekend. a lot of good memories. but this morning im in a weird mood. like i dont know quite what to think of everything.

friday janell and i went over to adrienne's and ashleys and saw everybody from our hall last year. maybe it's just the space in time, but it seemed like everybody had grown up, if only a little bit. and then brynna tells me that i LOOK so grown up, which is seriously at least the fifth person who has told me that this year.

then i saw scott from last year at the bar and he has a real job now. i can't believe that's going to be some of us in only a year. it was nice to see him again. u can tell he's changed a lot.

but i guess everybody has-and i don't know why i feel the need to spell this out. but, seriously, i'm cooking this year if only a tiny bit, im actually studying my ass off for a class, getting f's and still not giving up. im turning fucking sentimental and writing my grandma letters about how much i appreciate and love her. im giving people HUGS. ive gotten sick of talking on the phone to people all the time (WHAT!!!). i have a crush on an ATO FRAT BOY who's probably only three inches taller than ME. i have no clue when im going to graduate or what my damn major is going to be by the end of it. im taking classes with people who enjoy drinking coffee on the weekends and overanalyzing harry potter and yet i'm not judging them (too much). AND I HAVE LET A FEW PEOPLE RECENTLY WIN ARGUMENTS.